Sunday, August 26, 2012

I'm on a quest.

I can't believe it's been a year since I've made a post on my lovely blog. How slack am I? And to be honest, I don't have a good reason for my absence. I haven't been particularly busy, aside from starting a number of different tertiary courses and not completing anything as close as a unit let alone the whole thing. It's not like I've been living in a hole, or depressed in the corner for the past 6 years. I've been doing all the things I'd usually be doing, including dropping out of university courses due to my fluctuating career interests. But it's as if I haven't really been myself while doing the things that I would be doing anyway. I'm as happy as I've ever been and somehow on the path to success because everything just feels right. My life is amazing and I'm entirely thankful for everything and everyone in it. Though at the same time, I look back at myself and wonder what happened. Beyond motivational quotes and virtually stalking quirky and inspirational people, I need to find the core of who I am, again. So I'm on a quest to find my motivated and cheery self all over. Where did I go? It must have been somewhere. And how do I get myself back? This is my new challenge. Only two minutes ago a friend of mine suggested I represent my life story through crochet, my newly found hobby. It has been decided! Though this, and a few other mediums (I'm thinking interpretive dance, expression through words and cartoon strips) I will track back through significant and not so significant parts of my life to reminisce, deconstruct and try to figure this shit out. I'd better buy a camera. If you're reading this, you're welcome to follow my journey to rediscover myself, and if you're not, I guess it's a good thing I'm doing it for personal growth. Until then, enjoy the sunshine.